"=_=" The life...

I often think that my life like walking on the single-plank bridge. If I don't concentrate on it, I would fall into the no end abyss.
The abyss for me are the test grade and my family's thought. I make effort as possible as I can do to let my family happy, because this thing is the only thing can make me feel I am a useful person, and let me feel I am alive. Maybe you think it very ridiculous that that kind life is no meaning. But if I get rid of it, I cannot find why I live.
No matter how I make effort to attend to the people, I always feel lonely. No matter how many friend I have, I never be their best friend. I know it connect to my personality, but it hard to me to make a change. Sometimes I would think why I need to live to suffer many difficulties and unhappy things, and then, I would get a answer : I have to live because if I dead, there are some person would feel sad and pain. So I still live in this world.

"=_=" So tired...

I always felt I was tired that I often want to fall asleep in the class. I knew it was a very bad thing, but sometimes I couldn't control. In the past, I could sleep six to eight hours. But now, it was a desire. I always go to bed between twelve and one o'clock and wake up at five thirty 0r six. The day I can sleep more are Saturday and Sunday. I couldn't understand why my college's life was so busy, especially, I am a freshman in the college. I really want to realize the reason, but I think the answer may give me a sharp warning.

Well, this article was a complaint to my busy life, I think it was a re tribution to my inattentive life in last years.

"Thought" The five people you meet in heaven

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When you saw the author you might think I am his faithful reader. That's right, Mitch Albom is one of my favorite writers. His book was warm and fragrant, of course, there were filled with wisdom that can make me think many things.
This book" the five people you meet in heaven" was described a man who lived in a little town near the ocean and worked in the amusement park. The man's name was called Eddie, he was a maintenance worker in the amusement park.
Like the first sentence in this book "The story's beginning is the end." In the beginning, Eddie died on his birthday of eighty-three years old. And then he was brought to the heaven to meet five people who had played an important role in his life.

The first person was blue-skin man whose death resulted from Eddie. He talked to Eddie about what thing he would meet in the heaven and the connection between him and Eddie. And then, Eddie learned the first thing "No one's life is wasted in vain."

The second person Eddie met was the captain who had led him in the war. He told him his life and why he was the second people he met, he shot Eddie's leg for safe Eddie. And he taught one thing to Eddie "You sacrifice something and while gain something."

The third person was a woman Eddie hadn't met before. Her name was Lubby, the same name of the amusement park. She was the first master's wife of the amusement park. She told Eddie about how Eddie's father died and gave him a homework, to forgive his father. "You need to put down your angry and then you would be really peaceful." she said.

The fourth person was his wife, Marglit. Eddie told her about his life after she died. With her, Eddie remebered the love. The fifth person was a little girl called Talla. She was killed by Eddie, he had burned a place when he was in the war. And then, he was forgiven by Talla and knew this was Talla who brought him to the heaven.

This story stimulate deep thought. Every time I read it, I would think about my life. "Did I do wrong thing today?" "The things I do have the meaning?" "What is the meaning about I live?" I don't know the answer now, maybe one day I will gain the answer. Now I need to do is " Don't waste my life and do something to others." Like the author said in the end of this book "The world is built by many stories, and all the stories connect to the one." We must treat well everyone we meet, maybe he/she will be the person who can change your life.

"Thought" Tuesdays with Morrie

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I knew this book has been published for many years, but I wanted to introduce it to more people. This book was written about a young man and a old man, they discussed many issues about love, death and life before the old man arrived the end of his life.
The young man was the author, the old man was his college's doctor, Morrie. Morrie was very passionate and kind, he also was intelligent and he enjoyed his life not only he was health but also he suffered from the decease.
Morrie had said " When you learn the death, you will learn how to live..." He tried to realize the death and shared his experiences to others. He had taken place a " Living funeral", beacase he wanted to know the thought about him from his family and friends replace they said it on his real funeral and he couldn't heard them.
He considered we needed to face the difficulty in our life, but not let it control our thought and life. " When you face it you will feel much worse, but when it left, you should tell yourself "Let it go, let it out my mind.""
I like the book, because the emotion in this book is very touching and the expression was very pregnant with meaning. Every time when I read this book, I will start to think about my life and what thing I can do for others. Often I feel regret that I don't make any contribution to others. I just think about myself. I know there are many things I need to learn and to do, but sometimes I feel tired to do them, maybe in my mind, I also want others can give me a respond as the same as I do for them. I know it is too greed that I don't have the qualification to demand it. The thing I really need to learn first maybe is the unselfish.

"Diary"Buried by homework

When the spring vacation was end, I suddenly found that I had much homework.
The first was English, I forgot to preview the new lesson. Before to do it, the computer's homework occurred on my mind. So I change my plan to do the computer's homework first. This homework was to do a PowerPoint which was conformed the style to the teacher's demand. I spent four hours finishing it. Though I finished it, the time was not enough to preview the English lesson clearly, I just read once and did the first and second reading comprehension. And then, I went to bed.
Next day was Monday, I started to write the "life-span development" 's homework, it was easy but had a little problem that it had a limitation in the number of words. After I finished it, I started to delete the extra words.
In addition, I had to write the physic's and medical ethics's report. I thought I need to be more hard.
In the end, let me shout "Please give me more time!"

"Diary" Buried by fruit

Like the title showed, I had been buried by many kind of fruit. Because there weren't a refrigerator in our room and Vivian's mother told us she would take another fruit to us once a week, we needed to eat them during one week.

Last week was two Ha mi melons and four mangoes. This week Vivian took seven oranges and two box of strawberries, coincidentally, my mother brought some fruit to me. It made a terrible thing that if we couldn't finish them this week,we might need to abandon the fruit, so I decided to eat them, at least, one per day. I hope I can finish them before next week. Maybe it will be a mission which is more difficult than prepareing the examination.(Of course, it just kidding.^ˇ^)

"Diary" Something bad will come...

The time elapsed very fast, when I was conscious that, the middle examination is extremely urgent. And then, I only have two weeks to prepare it. My roommate, Vivian, had said it was a "trial day" to judge our effort in the ordinary day. I just produced a forced smile to this, because she said is a truth. And very unfortunately, my cousin's marriage ceremony will take place on April first is before the Anatomy and Physic' middle examination only few days. Now I am very beset by this thing, I need to make a decision between the lessons or relative. To ready for any eventuality, I decide to stay in dormitory to prepare the middle examination this weekend.

In order to lessons, I hope it may be worth of sacrificing a weekend to study. Now what I need maybe is a mind could to cut off all means of retreat. It is the time to make up my mind but I was a little impatient and Impetuous now. I think I need to take a deep breath and shout "Let's go to fight!" to make up my mine, but I think it will scare away my rommate...

"=_=" No power

It is not the first time I don't understand what I need to do. In my life I have anything I need, I have a good family and some good friends. And the most important thing is I don't have a aspiration to have much money or best grades. To my opinion, many things you can have are based on fortune. I know I am a lazy and arbitrary person, it always make my parents worry about me. But I don't want to change myself, in other side, I am a diehard. Maybe one day when I understand what I need to do, and then I will change my life style. But now, it is impossible to me. Who can give me a target to let me have power?
Now I need to do is not let my parents worry about me, so I decide to strive as possible as I can do. Let strive!

"Diary" A busy day

This dairy said the thing was happened in yesterday. Because I was so tired that I didn't have power to do other things last night.

Because I will have a examination at next Tuesday, I didn't go home this weekend. It was a regretted thing was happened after I decided to stay in school. My roommate's computer was broken which reopened many times during a night. Because of this thing, she couldn't do many things which need the computer. So she decided to apply her friend's brother to repair it, and she asked me that whether I could company her. I thought the examination didn't need much time to prepare, so I answer I could. And then we started to discuss the plan for Saturday.

On the Saturday, our alarm clock rang at nine o'clock and woke me up. I closed them and woke my roommate up. We went to the bus station about ten and arrived the Taipei train station about twelve. First, we went to the print shop to print some thing we need to prepare the examination. Second, we ate lunch at CHITAKA which was expensive but tasted good. After the lunch, we went shopping in the underground passage until four o'clock. I didn't buy anything at all, but my roommate found a big stuff animal and wanted to buy it. Because we had another thing to do, she decided to buy it later.

We took the MRT from Taipei train station to her friend's home to repair her computer. It was the first time I went to the stranger's home, her friend's family was very familiar and treated me a meal. To repair the computer spend much time and it didn't finish when we needed to leave at nine o'clock , so we decided to leave it in her friend's home and take it back on next Tuesday. We said goodbye to the family and returned to the Taipei train station to take the prints and buy the stuff animal.(It was a very big strawberry, and it was in our room now.)

When we finished these things, it was about ten. We waited the bus for a half hour and both felt tired. When we back to the dormitory, the time was near the middle night. So after we took the shower, we went to the bed. This day was very busy and fun, although I didn't prepare the examination.

"Diary" A bad night

Today was Monday the most painful day in a week. Although I only had four classes on Monday, I felt tired when I finished the classes at three o'clock p.m. After I finished my class and took four hours to rest in dormitory, the bad thing was happened when I took a shower.
My cell phone rang loudly so that my roommate took it up and talked to the caller. Because this was a man's voice, my roommate thought the caller was my father and told him I was taking a shower and I would call him after the shower. Strangely, the man insisted I needed to take the phone. The man's attitude was very impolite and he spoke in Taiwanese. Unfortunately, my roommate was not good in Taiwanese, so she didn't know how to deal with the thing. She cannot help but she gave me the phone.

(next was the conversation, all them was interpreted straightly .)

"Hello?" I said.

"Hey!" a strange voice said, and then, I understand one thing.

"Hello?" I said again.

"Hey!" he said again, too.

"...Who do you want to speak? " I asked politely.

"xxxxxxxxxx. Give the phone to the phone's master in hurry! The price of the call was expensive!" he said with many impolite word and was very impatient.

"This is my phone.You call the wrong number." I said.

"xxxxxx! Don't say that! Give the phone to him(her)!" he didn't accept the thing and reflected very angry.

"I say you call the wrong number!" I raised my voice.

"Hey! The call was expensive! Hurry up!" he still ignored what I said.

"I don't know who you want to speak, the phone is mine!" I started anger and impatient. Because I was in the middle of taking a shower, I felt so cold that I wanted to finish the ridiculous call.

"Really? Then I call again to check, ok? " he said with sarcasm and distrust.

"Ok." I said and cut the phone immediately.

Of course, the cell phone didn't ring again in the night. But my mood was worse than before. This was the first time I shouted to stranger.