"Diary" The family meeting

Last weekend was the annual meeting to my family. In this day, no matter how far people lived should come back. Every year we take this meeting nearly Mother's Day and Father's Day, of course, to celebrate those festival. We took this meeting place in a restaurant which has buffet could let people to take food by self. Because my parents rarely take my brother and me to a restaurant, we always eat too much in this meeting to enjoy the feeling. But sometimes we ate too much that made us feel very bad. It was the "As one makes one's bed so one must lie on it."

This year had one another thing to celebrate, it was my cousin could enter the college. \(^ˇ^)/ Because of his poor Chinese, we were worry about him, it was a happy thing that we all feel luck to him.(Because he was the thirty-third candidate.)

"Thought" If only

When we love someone, we should express our love as we only had one day to love.

The movie I first saw was on the meeting of the faculty. In the beginning, I did not think too much, I just thought it was a love story. And then, it really was a love story, but the movie had another thing I could learn. When we love someone, we should love her/him as we only had one day to love her/him. It was very difficult that because we always think we have much time to company and say love to her/him. But in fact, the truth was very cruel that we may lose in accident. From the movie, I learned to make more serious when I was alive. Maybe my life was short, but I didn’t leave any regret. I thought the chief actor in this movie felt happy, although the survivor (the chief actress) would be pain and sad.

In fact, when the actress sang the last song, I was crying because of sadness. I know it to be reasonable the movie was a tragedy, but I couldn’t help stopping crying. My roommate said I was a susceptible person. I know this thing have a long time, however, I am very easy to cry. = =

"Diary" Mother's day

Although today was Mother's day, but my family celebrated the festival yesterday. You ask me why? Because my mother had other program today. I have complained the thing for five years, when things come to today,I couldn't say any word about it. After all, I was numb about it.

Returning to the article, my father and I subscribed a cake last Sunday. It was a eight inches cake, because my family couldn't eat too high calorie food, so my father choosed raspberry and mulberry. I teasted it not bad, but my mother still thought it too sweet. I didn't give my mother a card, because I didn't know what thing I could write to her. Maybe my mother knew what I think so she didn't ask me write a card to her. Sometimes I felt iniquity, but every time when she went to Hong-Kong alone, the iniquity almost disappeared. Because every time she went out, my father would be alone in home. My father need to work to support my family, if my mother went out the encumbrance arised.

After all, my family's celebration took place for my grandmother, at least, I consider it to be true.

"=_=" Ah, terrible feeling...

I know I should study hard when I am a student. Like much people I stay in a lazy condition after the middle examination of Anatomy, but the middle examination of Physic would come next Wednesday. Maybe I need to take a vacation to store the power which could motivate me to study much harder. I found that I often complain myself about lack of motivation. I am really a awful person, I couldn't make sure if I want to change I am full of remorse.

Ah, sometimes I think I am open-minded, sometimes I feel anxiety about many things. In the final analysis, what kind person I am, I think I was a person who hard to get along with. Because I always feel alone, not only in the people, but also getting along with friends. Did I open my mind when I chat with them? I think answer is "Yes.", but why ? Maybe that because I am not their best friend, getting rid of me, it nothing change in their life. Every time when I looking forward to the sky, I often think if I suddenly disappear, if anyone will be sad or happy...

Ah, thinking too much can not change anything, I should do is going to study now, as for the meaning of my life, let it sleep in the deepest and darkest place.

"Diary" After the exam...

The middle examination of anatomy was finished on May eighth. I could not say anything about the result of the examination, also I had done my best in it, but sometimes I really want to forget it. No matter how the score about the examination, I hope that I couldn't feel regret.

Like the past after the examination, I return to the dormitory. That time I thought I needed to take a rest or go to bed. At the result, I spent about four hours seeing the animation "Gintama". "Gintama" is a funny animation,but sometimes the conversations in it is very vulgar. And then, I spent about three hours playing online game. I know it was unhealthy that staying a long time in the dormitory, but comparing with going shopping, I prefer to staying in the dormitory. How a corrupt life I have! After all, I have a leisurely day.

"Diary" Take a rest

Although the middle examination was not end, I gave myself a leisurely afternoon on Wednesday.
My roommate and I saw the animation change our mind, we laugh very loud together. I hoped we didn't annoy others. After seeing the animation, we went apart to do other leisurely things by ourselves. She went to see the article which were written by others and played RO. I went to play the online game "Pangya" which is a golf-played game. Because I seldom played game too long, I just played about three o'clock and then I felt tired. Because of little sense of iniquity, I spent one o'clock writing the physical report and read some books. At the ending, I went to bed at eleven-thirty. I had a long time to sleep in a good mood.

"=_=" The life...

I often think that my life like walking on the single-plank bridge. If I don't concentrate on it, I would fall into the no end abyss.
The abyss for me are the test grade and my family's thought. I make effort as possible as I can do to let my family happy, because this thing is the only thing can make me feel I am a useful person, and let me feel I am alive. Maybe you think it very ridiculous that that kind life is no meaning. But if I get rid of it, I cannot find why I live.
No matter how I make effort to attend to the people, I always feel lonely. No matter how many friend I have, I never be their best friend. I know it connect to my personality, but it hard to me to make a change. Sometimes I would think why I need to live to suffer many difficulties and unhappy things, and then, I would get a answer : I have to live because if I dead, there are some person would feel sad and pain. So I still live in this world.

"=_=" So tired...

I always felt I was tired that I often want to fall asleep in the class. I knew it was a very bad thing, but sometimes I couldn't control. In the past, I could sleep six to eight hours. But now, it was a desire. I always go to bed between twelve and one o'clock and wake up at five thirty 0r six. The day I can sleep more are Saturday and Sunday. I couldn't understand why my college's life was so busy, especially, I am a freshman in the college. I really want to realize the reason, but I think the answer may give me a sharp warning.

Well, this article was a complaint to my busy life, I think it was a re tribution to my inattentive life in last years.

"Thought" The five people you meet in heaven

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When you saw the author you might think I am his faithful reader. That's right, Mitch Albom is one of my favorite writers. His book was warm and fragrant, of course, there were filled with wisdom that can make me think many things.
This book" the five people you meet in heaven" was described a man who lived in a little town near the ocean and worked in the amusement park. The man's name was called Eddie, he was a maintenance worker in the amusement park.
Like the first sentence in this book "The story's beginning is the end." In the beginning, Eddie died on his birthday of eighty-three years old. And then he was brought to the heaven to meet five people who had played an important role in his life.

The first person was blue-skin man whose death resulted from Eddie. He talked to Eddie about what thing he would meet in the heaven and the connection between him and Eddie. And then, Eddie learned the first thing "No one's life is wasted in vain."

The second person Eddie met was the captain who had led him in the war. He told him his life and why he was the second people he met, he shot Eddie's leg for safe Eddie. And he taught one thing to Eddie "You sacrifice something and while gain something."

The third person was a woman Eddie hadn't met before. Her name was Lubby, the same name of the amusement park. She was the first master's wife of the amusement park. She told Eddie about how Eddie's father died and gave him a homework, to forgive his father. "You need to put down your angry and then you would be really peaceful." she said.

The fourth person was his wife, Marglit. Eddie told her about his life after she died. With her, Eddie remebered the love. The fifth person was a little girl called Talla. She was killed by Eddie, he had burned a place when he was in the war. And then, he was forgiven by Talla and knew this was Talla who brought him to the heaven.

This story stimulate deep thought. Every time I read it, I would think about my life. "Did I do wrong thing today?" "The things I do have the meaning?" "What is the meaning about I live?" I don't know the answer now, maybe one day I will gain the answer. Now I need to do is " Don't waste my life and do something to others." Like the author said in the end of this book "The world is built by many stories, and all the stories connect to the one." We must treat well everyone we meet, maybe he/she will be the person who can change your life.

"Thought" Tuesdays with Morrie

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I knew this book has been published for many years, but I wanted to introduce it to more people. This book was written about a young man and a old man, they discussed many issues about love, death and life before the old man arrived the end of his life.
The young man was the author, the old man was his college's doctor, Morrie. Morrie was very passionate and kind, he also was intelligent and he enjoyed his life not only he was health but also he suffered from the decease.
Morrie had said " When you learn the death, you will learn how to live..." He tried to realize the death and shared his experiences to others. He had taken place a " Living funeral", beacase he wanted to know the thought about him from his family and friends replace they said it on his real funeral and he couldn't heard them.
He considered we needed to face the difficulty in our life, but not let it control our thought and life. " When you face it you will feel much worse, but when it left, you should tell yourself "Let it go, let it out my mind.""
I like the book, because the emotion in this book is very touching and the expression was very pregnant with meaning. Every time when I read this book, I will start to think about my life and what thing I can do for others. Often I feel regret that I don't make any contribution to others. I just think about myself. I know there are many things I need to learn and to do, but sometimes I feel tired to do them, maybe in my mind, I also want others can give me a respond as the same as I do for them. I know it is too greed that I don't have the qualification to demand it. The thing I really need to learn first maybe is the unselfish.