"=_=" The life...

I often think that my life like walking on the single-plank bridge. If I don't concentrate on it, I would fall into the no end abyss.
The abyss for me are the test grade and my family's thought. I make effort as possible as I can do to let my family happy, because this thing is the only thing can make me feel I am a useful person, and let me feel I am alive. Maybe you think it very ridiculous that that kind life is no meaning. But if I get rid of it, I cannot find why I live.
No matter how I make effort to attend to the people, I always feel lonely. No matter how many friend I have, I never be their best friend. I know it connect to my personality, but it hard to me to make a change. Sometimes I would think why I need to live to suffer many difficulties and unhappy things, and then, I would get a answer : I have to live because if I dead, there are some person would feel sad and pain. So I still live in this world.

"=_=" So tired...

I always felt I was tired that I often want to fall asleep in the class. I knew it was a very bad thing, but sometimes I couldn't control. In the past, I could sleep six to eight hours. But now, it was a desire. I always go to bed between twelve and one o'clock and wake up at five thirty 0r six. The day I can sleep more are Saturday and Sunday. I couldn't understand why my college's life was so busy, especially, I am a freshman in the college. I really want to realize the reason, but I think the answer may give me a sharp warning.

Well, this article was a complaint to my busy life, I think it was a re tribution to my inattentive life in last years.

"Thought" The five people you meet in heaven

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When you saw the author you might think I am his faithful reader. That's right, Mitch Albom is one of my favorite writers. His book was warm and fragrant, of course, there were filled with wisdom that can make me think many things.
This book" the five people you meet in heaven" was described a man who lived in a little town near the ocean and worked in the amusement park. The man's name was called Eddie, he was a maintenance worker in the amusement park.
Like the first sentence in this book "The story's beginning is the end." In the beginning, Eddie died on his birthday of eighty-three years old. And then he was brought to the heaven to meet five people who had played an important role in his life.

The first person was blue-skin man whose death resulted from Eddie. He talked to Eddie about what thing he would meet in the heaven and the connection between him and Eddie. And then, Eddie learned the first thing "No one's life is wasted in vain."

The second person Eddie met was the captain who had led him in the war. He told him his life and why he was the second people he met, he shot Eddie's leg for safe Eddie. And he taught one thing to Eddie "You sacrifice something and while gain something."

The third person was a woman Eddie hadn't met before. Her name was Lubby, the same name of the amusement park. She was the first master's wife of the amusement park. She told Eddie about how Eddie's father died and gave him a homework, to forgive his father. "You need to put down your angry and then you would be really peaceful." she said.

The fourth person was his wife, Marglit. Eddie told her about his life after she died. With her, Eddie remebered the love. The fifth person was a little girl called Talla. She was killed by Eddie, he had burned a place when he was in the war. And then, he was forgiven by Talla and knew this was Talla who brought him to the heaven.

This story stimulate deep thought. Every time I read it, I would think about my life. "Did I do wrong thing today?" "The things I do have the meaning?" "What is the meaning about I live?" I don't know the answer now, maybe one day I will gain the answer. Now I need to do is " Don't waste my life and do something to others." Like the author said in the end of this book "The world is built by many stories, and all the stories connect to the one." We must treat well everyone we meet, maybe he/she will be the person who can change your life.

"Thought" Tuesdays with Morrie

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I knew this book has been published for many years, but I wanted to introduce it to more people. This book was written about a young man and a old man, they discussed many issues about love, death and life before the old man arrived the end of his life.
The young man was the author, the old man was his college's doctor, Morrie. Morrie was very passionate and kind, he also was intelligent and he enjoyed his life not only he was health but also he suffered from the decease.
Morrie had said " When you learn the death, you will learn how to live..." He tried to realize the death and shared his experiences to others. He had taken place a " Living funeral", beacase he wanted to know the thought about him from his family and friends replace they said it on his real funeral and he couldn't heard them.
He considered we needed to face the difficulty in our life, but not let it control our thought and life. " When you face it you will feel much worse, but when it left, you should tell yourself "Let it go, let it out my mind.""
I like the book, because the emotion in this book is very touching and the expression was very pregnant with meaning. Every time when I read this book, I will start to think about my life and what thing I can do for others. Often I feel regret that I don't make any contribution to others. I just think about myself. I know there are many things I need to learn and to do, but sometimes I feel tired to do them, maybe in my mind, I also want others can give me a respond as the same as I do for them. I know it is too greed that I don't have the qualification to demand it. The thing I really need to learn first maybe is the unselfish.

"Diary"Buried by homework

When the spring vacation was end, I suddenly found that I had much homework.
The first was English, I forgot to preview the new lesson. Before to do it, the computer's homework occurred on my mind. So I change my plan to do the computer's homework first. This homework was to do a PowerPoint which was conformed the style to the teacher's demand. I spent four hours finishing it. Though I finished it, the time was not enough to preview the English lesson clearly, I just read once and did the first and second reading comprehension. And then, I went to bed.
Next day was Monday, I started to write the "life-span development" 's homework, it was easy but had a little problem that it had a limitation in the number of words. After I finished it, I started to delete the extra words.
In addition, I had to write the physic's and medical ethics's report. I thought I need to be more hard.
In the end, let me shout "Please give me more time!"